detox_my_soul

Weekly Weigh-in Challenge

Fri, 09 May 2008 08:44:37 GMT

Name	Weight at Start	Week 1	Week 2	Week 3	Week 4	Week 5	+ / -
Detox	203	201	200				-3
Belle	148
Noire	170	166					-4
Sara	156

This week weren't so great, went on a downer over them photos but thankfully with the help and support from you all i have lost the gained weight and an extra pound so am happy with my weight loss today, i have tried to cut myself a bit of slack an it seems to be goin well, am not denying myself anythin just having smaller portions of the meal that way i have no excuse to overeat an gorge on the food i feel am missing

So can you all send me your weigh-in for the week an i can amend the table

Thanks girlies speak soon xx

Bad Bad Bad Day

Sun, 04 May 2008 20:25:35 GMT

today has just gone from bad to worse, i ended up eating the easter egg after seeing them photos, theres been even more so av just been on a HUGE downer still am, i hate havin this feelin were i wanna turn to food, why cant i just learn that food is not the answer

i need to shake it off i just dont wanna get in to this spiral of shit!!!!

i need to get the mentality that eatin all the comfort food is not the answer, but i know this yet i cant stop it arghhhhh ;o(

i have been looking at beautiful pics all day of celebs/models an everythin i was even just staring at the neck of one of the girls on the nite out its so lovely an perfect an she has such a lovely jaw line too arghhhh seein the pics makes me want to be like that but the upset an tears makes me want to go to the fridge, i hate this i really hate it i just wish i could be strong enough to get thru the bad parts coz now i feel like all my exercise an committment last week has gone out the window an that av got to start all over again

i hate bein me ;o(

Not happy

Sat, 03 May 2008 21:42:42 GMT

OMG i have just seen some very unpleasant, unflattering horrible pictures of myself taken the other week on a nite out,
i know am fat but i just hate it when you have to see it in pictures an everyone else gets to see them too
its makin me wanna eat the easter egg in my kitchen an am being so strong to resist, i dont want to be fat anymore am sick of it
i hate it, i just wanna be slim an pretty an look nice, an be able to go shoppin without havin to buy black all the time an not have to worry when friends try to take pics on nites out ;o( i wouldnt mind but i dont even remember the horrible pics bein taken i was that drunk!!!

av seen loads of cute little summer clothes i'd love to be able to wear an i really wanna wear this summer i really really really do i need it

1st week weigh in

Fri, 02 May 2008 20:47:02 GMT

Hey girlies sorry its a late post but av only had one reply for the weight so am just gona put mine an noire's in an when i get the others i will amend it

Name	Weight at Start	Week 1	Week 2	Week 3	Week 4	Week 5	Week 6	Week 7	+ / -
Detox	203	201							-2
Belle	148
Noire	170	166							-4
Sara	156

Well done to Noire for 4lbs LOSS thats fab results hun keep up the good work!!! ;o)

Well so far so good, i am gutted tho coz on wednesday i had got down to 200 an well thought by today i would be in 190's but its that time of the month so am gona work twice as hard next week ;op x

weigh-in tomoz

Thu, 01 May 2008 20:58:47 GMT

hey girlies weigh-in tomoz hope your all feeling ok about it,

am a little nervous coz i was out with my mum for tea an we ended up havin kfc
so i have totally gone over my cals an i was intending on exercising tonight but am still so fooked
av averaged out my cals for the week tho an av only had about 1000 a day
i know that more that what i wanted but i been exercising hard sofingers crossed av lost
av been feeling good in myself an i can see the shape of my thighs changing already
an my waist is goin in but i feel bloated from my period too, so its a bit shit but hey ho
even if i avnt lost this week come next week it shud be a good number hahaha ;o)

take care ladies message me tomoz with your stats an i'll do a new table xx

feeling tired but proud

Thu, 01 May 2008 09:17:40 GMT

the last 3 days of exercising has fooked me out, am gona miss this morning an make up for it tonight

Weigh in tomoz girlies hope your all feeling ok about it

i was feeling good but a bit peeved as av come on my period today so kinda a bit anxious for tomoz ;o(

Feelin Good

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 20:42:05 GMT

I av been commtted to exercising the past 3 days

monday 50 mins bike / 40 mins core workout in the morning
30 mins bike eveing

tuesday 1hr bike / 30 mins core workout

an today av done 1 hrs bike / 45 mins core in the morning
an just done another hour tonight on the bike am so made up with myself for it

av been doin interval training too on the bike started off with 1 minute @ 7 2 minutes@ 5 all the way thru
an tonight i was that pumped i was doin 2 mins@ 7 2 mins@ 5
now it doesnt sound long but when your doin after about 30 mins it really starts to get hard
but its so with the pain in my bum hahhaha the seat frickin kills av had to sit on a cushion today whilst doin it!!

hope every one is good x

Shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 21:04:45 GMT

Today started off good banana an yoghurt for brekkie,
dropped thomas off at nursery got stuck in to my exercises,
done 50 mins on bike an 40 mins core dvd,
had fish an veg for dinner, came on here an put all my stuff in to dailyplate an coz the amount went up for calories coz of the exercise
my mind went beserk!!!

i thought i'll treat myself for exercising little pack of crisps 60 cals.... turns in to3 packs an 3 cream eggs thru out the day knowing they were in the cupboard i had to have them an coz i werent goin over cals on TDP thought whats the harm........

then i get to 8pm start feeling really shitty an cryin an everythin for cavin an had a herbal lax tea followed by 3 laxatives as well an got back on my bike for 30 mins to help me feel better, but ya know what it hasnt, i wont feel happy until tomoz when av weighed myself an pray the scale doesnt go up!!!!!

plus this is the week before my period an am craving everythin arghhhhhh why did i have to gove in i have no control once i start

an tomoz am meant to be seein my friend who has just had her baby an she wants me to call around 11 which is the time av allocated for my exercises so i have to shorten it in the mornin an do more either once av got thomas or in the evening.. why does life have to get in the way of tryin to make a better you so that you can have a fab life ;o(

rant over am off to shower an bed hope your all doin better than me especially my girls who are doin the challenge ;op xx t

8lbs in 4weeks challenge

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 16:20:53 GMT

Starting 25th April weekly weigh-ins with the target set as 8lbs every 4weeks

Name	Age	CW	GW	Diet	Pills	+/-	Total
Detox	27	203	122	TDP 676 cals	Zotrim Green Tea Extract Multivitamins Complex b Slimmers aid
Belle	22	148	130	High Protein	None
Noire	20	170	120	Low Cal/Detox	None
Sara	18	156	125-130	Low Carb	Meta-slim

hopefully this will look better when i have everyones info ;op

We will weigh in every friday an update the table

Good luck ladies ;o) xx stay positive and think thin an we can do this together !!!

psychic

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 09:30:37 GMT

well last nite i had a psychic come round to my house ivy an she was fab, she was sayin loads which made me happy, my nan who sadly passed away while i was 6 months pregnant is my sons guadian angel which av always known but now she has confirmed it ;op

right at the end she said my nan wanted to give me a bag of maltesers which i love an she said when you start eating them you cant stop which is so true coz i have no control, but then she said you nan said she is giving you low calorie ones though hahahahaha she said am i on a diet an i said yes, she said well you've lost weight (which i have only 6lbs tho) an that if i stick at it i will do really well....how goods that lol

also she said the noises i hear of a nite is my dog jasper who is protecting me an my son bless him he passed away just over a year now

apparently am gona have 2 more babies not yet tho in the furture so when i do i am certainly not eating for 2 like i was with my son an i will be sticking to an exercise routine thru out if jessica alba can go the gym 5 times a week then its good enough for me lol

the main thing about last nite is that one of my best friends mum came thru for her, her mum had been ill with bowel cancer all last year an sadly passed away on new years day, so i was over the moon when she said her mum had come thru, she really needed the reassurance that her mum was happy an ok on the other side, so that was the highlight of my night

av had my own spirit experience which involved my best mates mum an my nan an grandad, an the psychic had said am sensitive to it but its lying dormant in me an has told me how to go about tryin to develop it, so am goin the library next week an gettin some books out on it, it'd be really nice to be able help people an bring them some kind of comfort after losing a loved one xx

targets

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 12:21:20 GMT

i have written up some targets for myself which am hopin will help me keep on track

these are my targets i have 2 columns, the first set of numbers is a healthy weight loss of 3lbs a week for the next 18wks an the second set is the 4.5lbs am hopin to lose using TDP (am actually hopin for more with exercise but dont wanna set myself up for a fall) think positive sarah!!!

so anyways av done the 2 so that if i dont reach my 4.5 i can still hopefully reach the 3lbs so i will stay happy if ya see what i mean, i just dont wanna be disappointed in myself an trigger too much over eating ;o[

start weight 203lbs

        12lbs loss 18lbs loss
23/05/08 191        185
20/06/08 179        167
18/07/08 167        149
15/08/08 155        131
29/08/08 149        122

(i would like to get down to 116)

doin good

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 08:57:11 GMT

well i didnt crack last nite which am happy about i love waking up the morning after a day of being good,

well i realised last nite that i have 9 weeks until the hen nite am goin on an need to lose as much as possible cant believe av wasted the last 3 weeks not sticking to it, plus i am due on next week so am not happy abou tthat

so far so good this morning, my son is back at nursery today so am just gona try an stay strong, think i might pass on goin my mums coz i dont wanna eat bad, av got friends comin round after so am gona use that as the excuse for not goin

gona look at some pics then clean up for tonight keep myself busy ;op

hope your all good stay strong

p.s can belle, queen an sara send me your stats, i know your all probably still in bed at the min lol can you include any diet your doin, pills your taking and anythin else you think is relevent an i'll try an do a table of it all, so we'll do weigh ins on fridays, also would any of you wanna set targets for example 8lbs in 4 weeks or somethin, or just try to lose as much as possible??? just tryin to think of ideas that will help keep us motivated xx

52 cals left

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 19:18:26 GMT

am starting to get hungry now an none of my girls seem to be online to chat too so am gona log off an drink more water an get an early nite

am really pleased for sticking to my cals today dot want to go ruining it now, an need to figure out what am doin food wise when am at my mums tomoz ;o/????? i just dont know what to do what to do what to do arghhhhhhhhhhhh its startin to give me a headache thinkin about it

for my little black kate moss....

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 12:07:58 GMT

hey there hun i have been tryin to find that story for you an i did woohoo

here is the link let me know if it doesnt work

http://www.fabulousmag.co.uk/features/feature_laxative_addiction_issue_012.php

xx

gettin there

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 11:45:51 GMT

well the week started good, monday was great in the end i only had 676 cals well chuffed,

but come tuesday my son started nursery which has been very emotional for me so i was doin ok in the mornin but then went my folks coz it was my dads birthday so had a big meal there (meat an veg)

then yesterday we met my mum for dinner an she treated us to a wimpy an i got my usual of a quaterpuonder with cheese an chips an then (i was looking at the salads but couldnt be strong an caved) came home an made a naughty meal of mince with curry an a few oven chips,

but then today coz my son isnt in nursery coz the teachers are striking here i feel fine about eating am not even hungry, but hes back in tomoz so need to get more will power

i have also wrote up my rota for next week, fitting in 2hrs exercise in the morning an 1 hr in the evening having a rest day on sundays an friday evenings, so am excited for that, av also wrote up my strength traing an cardio workouts so i can see them as am doin them coz i usually have to keep looking back in my food diary an this wastes time so am all prepared for that, av also tried writing up a food plan, but theres not really much to it hahahaha plus if people come round i dont mind them seeing my exercise plan coz there used to that with me but i wouldnt want anyone see my food plan coz that would be too much negativity for me an put me back in a bad cycle

av had 2 replies about the weigh in queen an belle so if you both want to add each other as well you can then see each others updates as well, am also thinking weigh in on fridays that way if we have bad weekends we have 5 days to get back on track for the next weigh in without stressing too much ;o) xx

finally uploaded a pic

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 14:17:54 GMT

hey there thought i would add a pic of myself, this was taken last june as a bridesmaid the only time av ever been asked an i was at my highest weight 209lbs ;o[ i wouldnt mind but i had lost 14lbs in 2 weeks about a month prior to the wedding date but managed to gain it all back i was so gutted!!!!

i have also done a virtual model to help keep me motivated, i am gona try an update my photos as am goin along as an incentive for me to stay on track

this is my goal weight 116 (audrina patridge weight) and my current weight 201

i was wondering if any of you would like to do a weekly weigh in of some sort as a way of us stayin focused an helpin each other along????
any suggestions as weekly or monthly goals would be great, we could then also compare which diets are the most effective an also any pills an exercise were doin an get an overall idea of what seems to be the most effective

p.s please be kind about the pics, i dont mind criticism but nothin thats gona make me want to eat (comfort eat) ;o[

xx

gutted

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 17:54:29 GMT

not posted all week coz av been totally pissed off with myself, it all started monday, my mate was comin round with a take away coz i hadnt seen her since august coz she had worked away, so i only had a banana all day knowin she would bring loads!!!

we ate that much i was so ill i had bad stomach cramps all nite an all the next day (i had ran out of laxatives too) i was so bloated an sluggish the next day so i tried not to eat much coz i felt awful, an the week just got worse all my cravings had come back an willpower had gone out the window av been so disappointed all week ;o[ i had finally got rid of the cravings so am gona av to go thru all that again

i started spring cleaning and decorating to take my mind off things an so far turned my small room in to a dressing room, been out an got the wallpaper and paint for my room an my sons so am hopin to have them both done this week

i was out last nite so feeling rough today am back on the diet tomoz plus my son starts nursery on tuesday so am setting up my exercise plan so i can keep focused on doin that while he's at nursery an then when he comes home (only in for 3 hours) i'll do the decorating so that am stayin busy an burning calories

diet wise am just gona restrict am thinking 800 cals but if i can am gona do 600, i think am just gona av to avoid seeing my family an friends which i hate but i dont wanna eat ;o[

i was reading today how a woman was addicted to laxatives an was taking up too 100 a day along with this she was also skipping meals an she managed to lose 5stone (70lbs) in 4 months although its wrong i still couldnt help thinking how fab that would feel

sunday blues

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 11:09:27 GMT

well its been a terrible week av not exercised all week an fell off the wagon loads this week ;o[

av been lookin for pics to keep me going, i need to get back on track av got a party on friday which i wanted to lose 14lbs for so far av lost 8 so av really got to get focused this week, av got my pump back so am blowing up my ball an doin the gunner peterson vids this week along side doin my bike an the exercises av found on you tube (fingers crossed am defo defo defo gona do it this week)

thought i would add some of my new pics, hope you like.....

jessica alba

audrina i just love her found out shes 116lbs does anyone know her height???

heidi klum i admire her after losing her baby weight in 9weeks

katie am really startin to love her style an i just love that belt

eva coz i would love to be able to wear dresses

heres hopin today goes well av not eaten so far just dramk water an green tea find i can control it better when i dont eat rather than when i allow my self to strange strange world xx

rant

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 08:44:52 GMT

i watched the louise redknapp programme again yesterday on you tube (30 day crash diet to size 0) an what annoyed me was when jamie(her husband) said that he doesnt know any men that like skinny women!!!???!!! hello his team mate is david beckham!!!

also when england are playin an the papers print the pics of the wags(wives and girlfriends) there all so slim so how can he say that men dont like skinny girls, plus all the skinny/slim girls i see are walking round with boyfriends!!!

and also louise is so hypocritical coz shes complaining how girls are harming themselves by crash dieting/eating disorders an the whole time she was doin the crash diet she was presenting the clothes show, so how can she have a go at the girls when the industry she is working for are the ones promoting size zero encouraging us to aspire to this????

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 11:41:26 GMT

well am avin another low day again today, dont know whats up with since comin off my period av been really down an not motivated to exercise which is really pissin me off ;o[

av lost another pound so am at 8lbs now which is better than gaining i guess, but i really want to work out !!my head is sayin come on move but my body just doesnt want too!!

how i would love to wake up looking like audrina ;o[

am just hopin the pics have come up its my first time av tried to upload a pic haha

scales weren't kind

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 15:40:26 GMT

well am still at 7lbs suppose i shud be happy but am just not, i only have 10 days till the family party an i was really hopin for over a stone, which would mean i have 10 days to lose over 7lbs, am thinkin of giving up on the juddd coz the up days make me feel like shit even with the exercising,

i think i might just allow myself to go between 600-1000 changing each day, i feel so much better when am only havin 600 an i love gettin on the scales the day after but i dont know if stayin at 600 everyday would be good coz i was reading a post before about the starvation mode an i really dont want to slow my metabolism down, am still waiting to hear from my mate about the pills so hopefully if i can get my hands on them this week i'll start feelin better

i just wish i could stop being so impatient i mean frickin hell av struggled with my body for about 11 years so what harm would a couple of months of sensible dieting do!!! but i just cant seem to do it its at point were my mates just laugh an ask what crazy diet am tryin now!! i just wanna find somethin am happy with an can stick at and stay motivated....is that much to ask for!!!! hahahaha

not good

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 16:10:21 GMT

not a good day today, my little boy ended up in bed with me last nite so i didnt get much sleep so all today av been really lathargic i was hopin to do my bike an a dvd today but yet again looks like it will be done tonight instead once my son has gone to bed, i have already gone over my 600 cals today which am disappointed in so i defo need to work my arse off tonight an prayin that the scales will be kind to me tomoz

it just hasnt worked out that well this week for me with meetin up with friends an family an stuff av not been as focused as last week, i hate it when i get to this point but av found the outfit i want for my mates hen nite in june so av hung it up as an incentive but it seems to be depressing me arghhhh i keep tryin to be positive an looking at pics to keep me motivated

found a fab quote about exercise before too 'short term agony - long term ecstasy'

up day today

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 21:46:38 GMT

like normal these up days are makin me feel bad, i ate really well at home today an then went to my folks for sunday roast an phoned ahead an said i only want a small plate an mainly full of veg, so when my dad dishes it up he gives me loads of beef an 3 roasties they were only small but i still fell bad,

plus av started back on my laxatives, the herbal laxative teas were good but i feel better when i take normal ones for some reason

am just prayin that i can get to 10lbs in total by tuesdays weighin, still at 7lbs when i weighed this morning but think av still been havin water retention from my period so av been takin extra vitamin b's to help fingers crossed for tuesday ;ox

plus i might be gettin some ephedra pills soon too just waiting to her from a mate about them fingers crossed for them too xx

i hate the mornings after an up day

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 10:41:41 GMT

its official i hate weighin myself after an up day it really fucks me off!!! am gona stop doin it now although it does work as a good incentive for my DD so i cant win either way damn thing

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:05:29 GMT

well didnt lose the 8lbs i wanted but i did lose 6lbs which is still good but because of my period i dont feel good about it ;o[
i done another 1hour 20 on my bike again last nite an on the spot exercises too
my hamstrings were feelin good this morning but after walkin round all day they've started tightening up again an hurtin slightly

av been out an got myself a food diary today to help me stay on track when am out an about, in the house am so good coz i write it all down but when am out i just go overboard, so my book fits in my bag an is so cute which is great

DD today an av stayed within my 600 cals just need to stay strong till bedtime now, gona get back on the bike in a bit again, am really enjoyin it until my arse starts to kill coz of the seat hahahaha

12 weeks till my mates hen nite an its fancy dress so that is my major goal before summer, av got little targets in between mates birthdays an stuff to keep me on track, fingers crossed for june i really want to lose 4 stone by then am just gona exercise like a bitch lol x